"Destiny is what it is ... or is it what we make i

2009-03-12T09:01:00.003+05:30

Iam writing a blog after so long.. I dont know which is scary.. The fact that I have to put what iam feeling in words or the fact that people are gonna judge me on that...Recently I quit my job.. I know people have been telling me this is not the right time.. But I feel something is missing.. Just broke up with someone I was with for 2 years.. Thought that we would be together forever... But things did not work out the way we planned it... not that I blame him or hate him..I cant.. Maybe Iam too emotional as a person.. I miss having someone to talk or share my stuff... Friends are busy with their life...But I cant seem to hurt people...Anyways Does love exist forever? Thats on my mind for sometime now.. For sometime now..I have seen my lots of my frds and family been in love with the same person for years... I have my parents who are married for 26 years... Iam not sure.. Does it exist in this generation?? People are now living for that moment.. I mean no plans of future..no talk of commitment..Just live for the moment... Hope I figure out this as soon as possible...

2008-11-09T11:03:00.003+05:30

From my childhood.. People have been telling me that a girl has to cook and clean even if she is a Vice President of a company. I dont like cooking maybe because I have seen my aunties and my mom being in the kitchen since the morning till late night. After every meal, they have a decision what should they prepare for a next day? And I always wonder will this ever end... My mom says that its a girl's duty to cook and take care of the house. She is most amazing person who balances her work life and personal life. Iam so scared sometimes whether I will be even 10% of what she is... I always tell her that I will marry a person who would love to cook.. But is there such a guy exists who would love to cook for me... Iam not sure.. Hope there is a person like that who would love to cook and may I find that person soon...

2008-02-17T21:34:00.002+05:30

Today is the sad day for me i guess..not sure why..I have feeling down since late afternoon..not sure where why iam soo upset and sad..iam trying hard not to feel soo insecure..But its not working as iam still insecure as hell..I have a friend who is in relationship with this perfect guy..i mean who is understanding,lovable and respects her like hell..but she still feels like me insecure about him maybe becoz he is not here with her..and she tells me that the distance is killing here..Its does not matter whether iam in a relationship or not..but even my friends treat me like that..sometimes they make me feel like iam not existing at all..Iam not blaming them..Maybe there are busy with their things...I blame the time..sometimes God.. for making forget people..Maybe iam wrong..I dont know.. I hope its not too late before people wake up one morning and realise that all their friends have disappeared as they have taken them for granted..

2008-02-15T23:33:00.003+05:30

Its been very long since i have written anything..maybe trying to get my head cleared..So i think that its the rite time now to write the blog..Soo lots of changes happenning in my life..Changed my life..trying to something which will be more fruitful..Soo rite now working as HR in a good company..not trying to think so much..maybe its better that i dont think..Personal life is still hell..Everyday when i wake up iam trying to find something good to live for..some reason to smile i guess..go through the entire day by finding something which will distract my mind...and when the Night falls i go thorough shit..feeling soo lonely..sometimes u are in the crowd and still feel the soo lonely that ur heart breaks..trying to please everybody..and still people dont love u enough..which scares the shit in you..going through the entire night is hell...but in the morning still thankful that iam alive..

2007-01-15T11:59:00.000+05:30

Hmmm...
This is gonna be my 1st Blog...Soo let see..Topic for today is me..myself...Never done this before..so kinda of scared becoz i never put my feelings into sentences maybe becoz i was scared what people will think..But to be honest if people like me after reading what i write then those people are true frds..Lets see..this is an exam for me and my frds..and my loved ones.. To describe is very diffcult as iam still trying to know myself..iam a very complicated person..and moody too..Iam a very insecure girl..maybe because i feel that everybody will leave me one day and go...So i do everything for them ...I call them whenever i wanna talk..I help with watever they want..Maybe iam being selfish for my reasons...But iam not selfish for materialistic things..Just for their love..time..Is that bad...to be waiting for someone to show that love ..care...I dont know maybe iam not lucky or maybe iam expecting too much from my frds..People nowdays are becoming soo busy that they dont have time to say how are u doing?? or just was thinking abt u...or I love u...Tell me how many of us say i love u to our parents...or frds.to be frank..i dont..Maybe its time...that we say to people we care...and we love them...That's all for today....