Wednesday, June 20, 2018

In Search of Happiness..

Behind every smile is a sadness which cannot be expressed. For everyone who knows me I am all sorted in terms of job, family, friends etc. It is assumed that my life is full of parties every weekend with awesome people because of my love for photography.

To share this story has been my difficult task as it might hurt lot of my close people who love to see me smile all the time. But its time for me to be honest about myself in order to find the lost happiness which I am trying to search..

Have you ever been in a group of people and still feel lonely? When you feel you trying very hard to be happy and trying to smile every time so that people will not be asking you too many questions?

I was on assignment away from home for six months and felt so homesick that I had to come back to home. I thought I would be more happy and contend being at my home base. However I was wrong, since coming back home, it has been an roller coaster ride. I wasn't happy like I was expected myself to be.  Parents being disappointed since I am yet to be married.Will parents ever understand what we go through?  Can you ever make your parents happy for you?

I am not against marriage, however if I am unable to find a right person it’s better to be single then marry the wrong person.  Who doesn't like to come home to someone, share your day, go out on dates. Who doesn't like to have someone who is proud to be your partner?

Is the girl only complete once she is married. I know its the aim of every parent to see their children happy and settled. Maybe some children are not meant for this? 

Is it easy to talk about the pressure you feel when you see your parents disappointed that you arent settled? To be honest, I do feel suffocated when I am being told constantly to get married, lose weight etc. Does it ever end? I only wanted someone to love me the way I am. We are in a generation wherein its so difficult to trust people as people change constantly. Relationships these days, needs lots of patience, compromise and understanding.

We see everybody around us getting married, being happy that you wonder what is actually wrong with you. We don't realize that we would find our soulmate once its time. But what if this pressure gets to you and you just feel like giving up.... Give up everything so that every one around is happy without you.